i did it :))

very short post..

just to say:

I DID IT :)) WEEEEEEEEE! :))

feeling mo lang :P *dedicated to all my friends :)

haha. medyo malabo title ko :)) haha. anyways, just wanted to say na, if ever you feel ALONE, like i do, did and will, try hard to think na that it's not true, 'coz it's really not true. you think that 'coz that's what you force yourself to think. if ever you feel that way, allow yourself 1-2 days maximum to think.. about, well, everything.. the way you feel and all. (but, i violated my own advice.. haha. siguro, 2 weeks ako? haha!) back to the topic.. then, talk to your friends, family, or kung kanino ka medyo nahuhurt.. ( again. i violated it :)) yey me? ) then yun.. tell them what you feel, how you felt before and currently (another violation :) haha! ) so, yun.. and then, hope for the best! remember: "you are never alone :)"

*okay. i gave a blog advice :)) haha. medyo na-inspire lang ng kaunti.. dahil sa friends ko :)) thanks sa inyong lahat :) thanks na ayaw niyo kong masaktan and maging sad.. thanks na, hindi niyo ako pinababayaan kapag may problem ako :)) and not only that, pati fun times syempre :P i love each and everyone of you :)

the truth hurts, a lies WORSE. :\

HAHA. :)) because of my problems, i'm going crazy, AGAIN. so, i definitely want to feel numb right now. i wanna forget everything. well, not entirely, everything.. just my problems.. haha. but that probably means everthing. haha! okay, i'm done laughing. haha. oops, not yet. eto na talaga. :P

do you know that feeling when you just want to stay inside your "safe-perfectly numb-peaceful" haven? beacuse you know the problems will attack you once you step outside? yep. that's how i feel. i'm hiding. i'm also blocking how i feel.. <-- a lot of people have been asking me what THAT means. well, it means: i'm stopping IT. (whatever it is.) come on. i want normality.. i miss the old times :( grabe, twice in my L life did i say that.. see? i just mess up everything. ha. that's me.. tapos.. parang.. hay wala lang.. UGH. ewan.. basta yun.. di ko na alam gagawin ko.. :(

it's changed. what is? EVERYTHING.

HAHA.

that's the way to start my entry.

so, it's summer.. currently in my province.. with my relatives.. attended my cousin's debut.. uh.. read 2 books already: HARD LOVE and THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES.

and.. about the OTHER stuff.. uh. ahaha! that's why i'm going to blog right now.



emote time again? uh.. probably. ahaha. okay. so my point exactly is, everything has changed, right? now, what want is for everything to ba back to NORMAL. i think most of you know what i'm talking about.. so, that. *sigh* why do i have to mess up everything?! i'm so.. CRAZY. ugh. that's it. the cause of all my problems is none other but me. and who could solve this? me again. but i don't even know what to do. it's.. all messed up i think.


CHANGE -- to be COMPLETELY different.


yeh. totally different. what am i going to do?


a. nothing
b. think
c. stare
d. talk
e. cry